This entire goal is coupled with the inner journey I've been on intentionally since July 4. A strange friendship interaction stopped me in my tracks and I was brought to a new awareness that there are real broken places in me and unless I pay attention to the speakings of my heart.... the emotional reactions.....the speakings of God in my spirit, this broken pattern will continue.
My late 30's and now all through my 40's have been a time of reflection, pain, escape, rebellion, and crisis. But I don't know if my life has ever been still enough to pay full attention to it. This past summer told me I'm far from over.
So this past Friday, I was beginning a part of my inner journey and needed to start to write my autobiography. The first step was to write memories of my first decade of my life. Easy right? Wrong. So very wrong. In the realization that I don't have many memories of those years and the ones that were most available to me were not positive in nature. This inner journey overwhelms me many times and it had this morning. I had to stop the reflection and I headed out side to my walking route. I grabbed my phone and put on the Chris Tomlin app as I allowed worship to recenter my crazy overactive mind.
I walked the path. It felt better than when I did it with Kathy. I think I was already getting stronger. One step at a time. When I got back, my mind had cleared. Love was expressed through those songs. Hope rekindled. It took me about an hour. Good beginning.
26.2 miles? At this pace I would need almost 9 hours. I hope to get faster... :-)))
But good beginning.
Here's the pic from the middle of our route. Fall in Ryder.
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